Name: Shinaal IP: 131.94.2.160 Subject: That's what it's all about Email: Shinaal@hotmail.com Website: http://Article: do you remember the hokey pokey? put your right foot in and take tour right foot out? I loved that in pre-school... it was all about being silly...I went through a massive deppresion last year and that has been my moto since... BE SILLY!!!! do what you wanna do just so long as what needs to get done gets done.. All I know is that I'm alot happier when I act silly. as to getting done what needs to get done, don't ask me I'm lazy too. I hope you do post your mindless rants or your not so mindless ones... you write your thought and people talk to you about them... it's great!!!Shinaal--- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- Replying to Original Article:Article: Beautiful. That is what this whole mess is about. If you can't express yourself, then you can't work through your problems or find solutions to external ones. Hopefully you will post things not only when in times of distress - it's good to discuss matters at hand with a calm mind (and also with a crazy mind). Furthermore, I don't think you've lost your youth yet. You're still a teenager, man! Get out there and have some crazy wild times.--ZAPP--- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- Replying to Original Article:I miss the days of my youth. Granted I'm only 18 years old, but I'm suddenly realizing that I'm an adult now. I can no longer sit on my ass and watch T.V. all day long, and not worry about anything. Children are so anxious to grow up, but I wish I could grow down. I wander around the Tech Campus and go to class every day. And more and more I have the desire to just run away from it all and become one of Keenon's so called career bums. or maybe they were kenny's.... anyway, I sometimes feel quite overburdened although I know in my heart that I've actually got it quite easy. Who knows? someday I might just be happy with where I am, but at the same time, I can only hope that I never am. I suppose it is the struggle for happiness that makes life worthwhile. If complacency sets in, then that is when you die. People say Americans are the laziest culture in the world, but we worked hard to become so. I for one am proud to live in a society that has solved enough of our problems to have a population that doesn't have to work 18 hour days just to pay the bills. That is where some of my longing for the days of Yore. I am lazy, and that laziness is causing me to not get very good grades in Chemistry and the associated lab. This in turn has caused me anxiety, because If I fail Chemistry, then I owe Uncle Sam some big bucks. they only pay if I pass. I am feeling overwhelmed, and at that causes me to only get ever lazier. this is why I am sitting here typing this instead of reading my textbook. I don't know, Spring Break is only a week away. Maybe I'll get off my ass and start catching up then. probably not, but here's hoping. You know, I just posted on my board saying that I'm not profound, and I guess this little rambling is the closest I ever come. And that usually happens when I'm feeling a little overwhelmed, which I am. and I usually just type randomly in notepad and don't save it. Perhaps I will start using the message boards as a form of self expression; maybe I'll just start saving when I write in notepad. I don't know, all I know is that I need to s! tart keeping a record of my thoughts and feelings. anyway, I don't think I'll really go become a career bum, but Something in my life needs to change. and on that happy note, I bid you adieu.