Name:     blue star
IP:       129.120.64.10
Subject:  Pay attention to me!
Email:    bluestarliz@hotmail.com
Website:  http://
I'm starting to grasp the basics of html, and I gave up on the school website (it's at
people.unt.edu/~eab0005) and I couldn't figure how to do anything with it, so I just got a
geocities page, which is better since I can't ftp stuff from the school's computers anyway,
which I'm using for the time being.  Some day I'll get my own computer and I'll do whatever I
want with it.  Ah...  I'm spending too much time on the computers now, between playing with html
and talking on this message board and of course, my addiction to email, even though no one but
Chris (the guy I'm dating, who lives in bedford and therefore a different area code) and my mom,
and even my mom has failed me today .
Yesterday, I went up to Orange Julius to talk to Joe for the last couple of minutes before I
went to work and then I was about to leave and the mere thought of working at Walmart was too
much and I ended up crying for the next 30 minutes, about everything and nothing at all.  So I'm
quitting.  Once I stop putzing around on the computer, I'm going to Walmart and saying "I can't
take it anymore, I quit."  That job fucking sucks.  I get paid on Thursday, and I'll get on oil
change for my poor little car (which is being a good sport about not having it's oil changed on
a regular basis and is currently 1100 miles overdue), and I get gas, and I'll try to find a
really small nose stud so it'll not really be noticible, and go find me a job to sustain me for
the last month of school.  I haven't talked to my mom about this yet.
I'm also thinking about returning to Lubbock and going to SPC and living at home.  this is a
prospect that saddens me since I really like Denton and I like the school, but I'm going to lose
my accademic scholarship, no buts about it, and my mom cannot affort to support me like she has
this year, so some kind of drastic acton has to be taken.  If I live in Denton, I WILL have to
work full time to have a place to live and gas for my car and what not (and pay for classes,
since my mom is only covering $1000 of my tuition a semester, leaving me to cough up $500 more). 
We have already established that Liz is NOT able to work full time and be an art student (a very
time consuming major).  So the options are go back to Lubbock and take classes at SPC and work
part time and just try to regroup, or to work full time and go to school at UNT only part time
(6-9 hours) and take fucking forever to go to school.  Neither option really sounds that good,
but it seems I have precious little choice.  And I'm REALLY worried about telling my mom this,
though I know in the end she would like nothing more than for me to move back home. 
Argh...being a grown-up sucks.