Name:     SqueegeeBob
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Subject:  allow me to explain
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What I was really trying to convey was that I have such little experience doing it that I feel
like I'm doing it wrong.  More a feeling of uneasyness than anything I guess.  Havn't you ever
tried something that you really didn't know how to do and even though you may have been doing
just fine, you felt so apprehensive that you just assumed you must be doing it wrong?  That's
the way I feel when confronted with any kind of physical contact.  When someone tries to give me
a hug I start thinking things like "How long am I supposed to stay like this?  How hard do I
squeeze back?  Do I squeeze at all?  Am I supposed to use both hands or just one?  What if I
thought I was supposed to use one hand and they use both?"  And the list goes on and on.  Just
call me Mr. Insecurity.
The first time any one ever gave me a hug it was the last day of school in the fifth grade.  The
person who gave me the hug was a girl who I had a crush on.  I had absolutely no idea how to
respond to this.  So, I didn't respond at all.  The worst mistake I ever made.  She ended up
hugging me while I just stood there with my arms at my side.  Then, she ran off crying.  I felt
so bad that I ended up having to go to counseling to recover from depression at the age of 11. 
Maybe now you can understand why I have a problem with that sort of thing.  I'm really just
afraid I'll screw something up.--- --- --- --- --- --- --- --- ---