Name:     Ian
IP:       131.94.145.164
Subject:  Hey, I forgot I wrote this!
Email:    oobarba@earthlink.net
Website:  http://

This was basically the summation of all the shit I go through because of Shayna.  Everyone just
had to give me their opinion, And finally, I answered.  Read read everyone.



                        Because I am Old



I do not know why I am crying but I am

It refuses to stop, attempt at control causes it to start again

Why is it embarrassing to cry?  Is it because I am a man?

I should be allowed to cry.

Why do I have to be old?

When I was a child I was never judged

Things were easier

Everyone liked me

Rejection is new

Judgment is new

Why am I bad and impure?

Take me back

I am sickened by judgment and rejection

I want to be the nice boy next door again

Incapable of evil, infallible

My feelings are wrong

My intentions are wrong

Everyone says so

This feeling of unwantedness

Hatred

Rejection

Judgment

Bias

Prejudice

I will not let it make me unclean

I wipe the grime thrown upon my hands

And the tears placed upon my face

And show them all that I can be clean

And will not be sullied with the hurt they force upon me



p.s. I'm not so pissed anymore so, don't worry about me.  I hope John fixes his forum soon, I am
usually better at generating response there.  Until then, BWA HA HA tm

-Ian